Sunday, November 9, 2008
I have been so busy that I did not realize I had not posted on the blog since August.
Since I last wrote, I experienced the one year anniversary of my husband's death. I never had any idea just how difficult if would be to just get up and function because of what date is was. I actually remember sitting at my desk and seeing (very vividly) me opening the door and the 2 police officers standing there waiting to tell me he had been killed. At the same time I was realizing that I had come so far since that day a year before. I don't talk too much about my grieving experiences but I have been on a constant roller coaster ride. My heart was broken into a million different pieces on Sept. 15, 2007. Just now do I feel as if I have the puzzle glue that will hold it back together again. It will be almost whole. There will always be a very large piece missing. I know John is smiling down on me each and every day.
I am actually starting to want to see other people again. I miss companionship. I have enjoyed chatting with some very nice men online. I have even gone so far as to meet some of them in person. It is very different dating in your 40's than when I was a teenager. :)
Alia is getting so big. She will be three in April and very busy exploring the world. You definitely have to keep a constant eye on her or she will do things like fingerpaint with a jar of Vaseline! The picture above is a new picture of her.
I went to Vermont to see Michael in September. My grandmother and I went. It was a nice weekend away.
Kira has gotten almost everything planned for the wedding. It is now just paying for it all. :)
Well, this should bring you up to date with what has been going on with me over the last couple of months.